WTF???

It's 4am. I went to bed at 11pm. I feel like crap, my chest and stomach hurt, my knee is killing me, and my anxiety is through the roof. I feel like I'm falling apart. The Army method of telling myself that nothing is wrong until I pass out is not helping. The lack of sleep, frustration with no progress, and the strain I am putting on the ones I love is getting to me. How do I stop? How do  I get a hold. I'm flailing. Off to watch Hulu till the sun rises.....